Ten Years Later...

Hard to imagine it has been ten years. In some ways it seems much longer, in others it seems like seconds ago. I remember always being glad we did not live in one of those countries where things like that happened..

I was pregnant with my daughter, married and living on Fort Knox of all places. I felt secure...
I was watching Good Morning America like I always did in the morning. My brother was at school and my son was dressed and ready to go. I had a math test that day, my mind was on that. My now ex husband was at work in the motorpool.

In the last few minutes of Good Morning America, they cut away to live footage in NYC. I was puzzled, it did not look real. It looked like a movie. It was right after the pilots got in trouble for flying while drunk. I called the motorpool to speak to my ex to let him know and to see if he knew what was going on. He was at a re-enlistment ceremony, they knew nothing.

I continued to watch without any thoughts, only confusion. I saw the second plane fly near the World Trade Center. It seemed like hours.. Then the explosion. I still don't have the words to describe what I felt. Thinking of it now brings tears to my eyes, still.

I did not know how to react. I did not want to miss my math test. I guess I went into auto pilot. I got in the car to take my son to my friend Isa's house so I could get to school on time. While I was in the car the towers fell. I saw the people jumping later on the news. There are still no words that can describe what I felt and saw...

I remember the aftermath. The post got locked down, nothing was open. We went to the grocery store and had to take a cooler because it took about 4 hours to go through the security checkpoints to get home. A lot of people left their cars off post and just walked on to the base it was so much faster.

All the soldiers were on duty. I remember I just wanted everyone at home, I never had such a need for everyone to be close. I worried about the backlash for anyone that was from or appeared to be from any place in the middle east. I remember how odd it was to not see any planes in the sky. I remember watching the lists for the names of any friends that lived in NYC. I can't even imagine the effect if I was affected directly..

Still there are no words... ♥